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lazybox2013-09-16 10:22 pm
bloodyashes) wrote in lazybox2013-09-16 10:22 pm
[Shadow Self meme-jack]
[Even those who know Asch and Luke well might get a bit confused seeing this redhead wandering around. The slightly darker hair is a clue, tied back in a loose ponytail, and the clothes are little better. That's not something Luke would wear, right?
And yet he doesn't carry himself like Asch at all; there's something gentle about this boy that the God-General lacks. Asch is a blade just under the water, waiting to strike those who don't pay enough attention. This boy is a gentle stream, quiet but steady, nearly impossible to dam up.
The boy who might have been Luke looks at you with bright yellow eyes and a gentle smile.]
And yet he doesn't carry himself like Asch at all; there's something gentle about this boy that the God-General lacks. Asch is a blade just under the water, waiting to strike those who don't pay enough attention. This boy is a gentle stream, quiet but steady, nearly impossible to dam up.
The boy who might have been Luke looks at you with bright yellow eyes and a gentle smile.]
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I don't hate you, you know.
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He sighs and tilts his head.]
Okay... [He looks down.]
Where'd ...that come from?
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[That's... pretty logical, shadow!Asch. Probably going to get you more weird looks, though.
He turns away from Luke, so that they're facing the same direction, and keeps talking.]
I want to trust you. I want to give you the chance to try. But the you who was here before...
[His voice drops a little.]
I don't want to get hurt again. So it's just easier to push you away, the same way I did everyone else.
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In spite of it still being weird, Luke finds himself simply... feeling bad for his original. He closes his eyes for a couple of seconds, before opening them with a softened expression.]
I get it, but... [But this isn't like you!]
Where's all this actually coming from, all of a sudden? [He doesn't care if he's repeating himself. Answer the question, imposter!Asch.
That's the last time he's going to ask it, though. If it doesn't work this time, he's just going to drop it, for now.]
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[It's probably not the response Luke is looking for. There's a vehemence in it, though, that's the closest to the usual Asch, but there's an edge of desperation to it, too.]
I want to make a fresh start, but I don't deserve it. I want to wash away everything I've ever been. I want to go home and be welcome.
But that's Luke's place, and if I go there, I can't escape being Luke.
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But, Asch... [He looks down at the floor, speaking softly.] You do deserve it, though.
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[You thought you were the only one with Van Issues, Luke? At least you can admit to them.]
You think you deserve to be hated to Akzeriuth? You never intended for anyone to get hurt. I took lives and I gloried in it, and I did it all for him.
And even here I can't escape from it.
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He can't say that, though. Instead, he resorts to looking fairly surprised. Asch never seemed to have... Van problems. In fact, Asch always seemed so... composed, calm, ...level-headed. Sure, he's always had those anger issues.
Even with that, though, he always seemed like the more mature one. Luke had felt so... jealous, at one point. Now, he realizes, though...
Asch has always been just as messed up as he... still is, in many ways. Looking down, Luke lets out a soft 'heh'.]
So, what...then? Because you ...made some mistakes, you're just gonna sit around, and beat yourself up? You're gonna give up, without trying to think of a way to atone?
[He really... had not meant to let that slip out. Sighing, Luke scratches the back of his head. For once, he's the one looking annoyed.]
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[It's not said as a complaint, just a simple statement. There's a lot of simple statements, today.]
I try, but it feels a lot like rolling in place, sometimes. Dying wouldn't have been so bad.
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Just... stop it, already. You don't know what the hell you're saying, do you?
[He gives a hard stare to the floor, before finally releasing a sigh.]
I used to think that way, but... sometimes the answer's right there in your face. It's a matter of opening your damn eyes to see it.
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[A small laugh, then, and that at least is very unlike Asch. He's smiling, gratefully, although it's not directed at Luke.]
You don't have to look so worried. I've already been talked out of following through on it.
[He turns his head to look at Luke, briefly, before going off to stare into space.]
Someone cared enough to want me to live. For myself, not what I could do for him. I can't shame him by ignoring it.
lol it's okay
Yeah, he's pretty sure there's no way this is even Asch...
His curiosity is piqued, though, on who the mentioned "him" is. When he speaks, it's in a more softened tone.]
Who?
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[His expression turns more towards its usual kind of sour - his fists tighten at his sides.]
Someone I can't repay. Someone I didn't even have the courage to call friend.
[He sounds more like his usual self, there, although his voice is more regret than anger, instead of the reverse that might be expected.]
they're always fun!
Then, he attempts a smile.]
When someone really cares, ...they don't need you to repay them. People do things for those they care about, simply because they want to. Not so the other person will have to do something in return.
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[There's the sound of someone approaching in the distance.]
It's something other people get to experience. I've never been in a position where people didn't want something from me before.