Yuri's a feeler, not a thinker - most of the time, at least. And right now, what he's feeling is distinctly overwhelmed. So much so, it feels like he's thinking too much - like his brain is screaming at him.
He fights back the urge to cry or scream or - well, anything, really, that seems childish and stupid but would, he thinks, in the moment, really make him feel at least a little better. Maybe he'll be able to find a nice river to yell into later. Right now, with the outward ease that comes with a lot of practice, he drags himself back together with brute force. Poke at the problems later, when you have time and allies you can trust to watch your back against anything.
In the now, focus on what's in front of you. And what's in front of him is Asch, looking almost as on edge as Yuri feels, offering him a boon.
Frankly, Yuri does not want Asch to take a look at him. In the cell had been one thing - he'd been actively bleeding out, if just a little - but he's hit a mental limit and his skin is crawling and numb at the same time. Just being in the same room as all these people is enough to make his annoying heart beat faster. But he also sees the offer for what it truly is: concern, a gentle change of subject, and, knowing healers, Not Actually An Offer.
Not that he thinks Asch would just walk over his consent if he actually said no, but. He'd probably act like Yuri was being an idiot about it.
He very carefully avoids thinking about...the Aegis stuff. Only so many world shattering revelations at a time, and if he has to pick one to focus on, it's going to be the universe jumping. Healthy? Probably not!
"Blade studies in general aren't a big thing in Terca Lumireis," Yuri says eventually, tone even. "Flesh eater studies...well. I'd probably have to get into the history and politics of my world for context to even explain the complexities of why flesh eater studies either don't exist or are super under the table...?" He trails off with that, leaving the question open. It's not like he knows fuck all about how flesh eating works here, socially speaking, though the fact that only Jade in the room is also a flesh eater...honestly says a lot, from his point of view. "All that to say that. yeah, if you want to throw your expertise this way, you can." He shrugs, trying to play it off a little.
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He fights back the urge to cry or scream or - well, anything, really, that seems childish and stupid but would, he thinks, in the moment, really make him feel at least a little better. Maybe he'll be able to find a nice river to yell into later. Right now, with the outward ease that comes with a lot of practice, he drags himself back together with brute force. Poke at the problems later, when you have time and allies you can trust to watch your back against anything.
In the now, focus on what's in front of you. And what's in front of him is Asch, looking almost as on edge as Yuri feels, offering him a boon.
Frankly, Yuri does not want Asch to take a look at him. In the cell had been one thing - he'd been actively bleeding out, if just a little - but he's hit a mental limit and his skin is crawling and numb at the same time. Just being in the same room as all these people is enough to make his annoying heart beat faster. But he also sees the offer for what it truly is: concern, a gentle change of subject, and, knowing healers, Not Actually An Offer.
Not that he thinks Asch would just walk over his consent if he actually said no, but. He'd probably act like Yuri was being an idiot about it.
He very carefully avoids thinking about...the Aegis stuff. Only so many world shattering revelations at a time, and if he has to pick one to focus on, it's going to be the universe jumping. Healthy? Probably not!
"Blade studies in general aren't a big thing in Terca Lumireis," Yuri says eventually, tone even. "Flesh eater studies...well. I'd probably have to get into the history and politics of my world for context to even explain the complexities of why flesh eater studies either don't exist or are super under the table...?" He trails off with that, leaving the question open. It's not like he knows fuck all about how flesh eating works here, socially speaking, though the fact that only Jade in the room is also a flesh eater...honestly says a lot, from his point of view. "All that to say that. yeah, if you want to throw your expertise this way, you can." He shrugs, trying to play it off a little.